I live my life in shades of grey.Very rarely have I experienced anything that was black or white. I try to carry the knowledge that there is more to any situation than I can see. It helps me empathize. Recently I have been feeling some extremes. “I am going to die alone.” “No one will ever love me again.” Things like that. I have been talking with friends about it to help work through this dark space. Everyone is super nice and says that of course I will find someone. That tends to leave me going, “How can you possibly know that?” Last night I had a friend say something a bit different to me…
I hear you. I don’t know what the future holds, but I have confidence in your ability to grow in your capacity to bend it to your liking.
This might be the most supportive, kind thing someone has said to me.
As I have been feeling these extreme things, I have been trying to figure out how to find peace with them. The conclusion I have come to is that if I am going to be just me and need to have fun with myself. So, here are somethings I am doing for me.
- Eating better
- Going to the gym
- Doing more art
- Drinking less alcohol
- Getting out of my apartment
- Going on adventures
- Spending time with friends I don’t see nearly enough
I finally feel ready to focus on me again.